Soulless

I dont know whether this word exists, but that word came to my mind this afternoon. I was sitting in the bus and I was gone too far. I’ve walked around in the shopping mall without seeing what was around me. I could not see I could not feel. I went to a cafetaria and [...]

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Love vs life

There are things that are supposed to be ours , then they will ours someday. There are things that are not supposed to be ours then then will never be ours, no matter what. Do you believe in that?
Do you believe in something called Kou preng? Old people say if he or she is your [...]

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Why am I the one to feel bad?

Everyone might have experienced this, lending money to friends. Yes, you know it well right?
I dont know why I am known for being so kind and so weird it seems like ppl believe I have alot of money. Why everytime it’s about money ppl turn their faces to me? Oh yeah I can tell you [...]

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secret message continued…

Now you’re gone. We knew there’s today. You asked me how much longer do we have destiny together and I said very soon. Now it’s time. Thanks for this dream, those time we are together.
If you are to come back or not is under God’s plan. I dont wish that you wont be back. But if you [...]

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A married man continued..

At first I just keep my eyes on his behaviours. I didnt feel anything, I didnt hear anything from his mouth. I was not scared of him.
I dont know how lonely he is, or may be he’s just a man like every other man… He tells someone he’s closed to, that he doesnt know why [...]

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secret message

This is just between you and me. Any third party is not supposed to get to know…
you told me we can just love each other by heart and it would be enough. You know I am not young anymore that I can do that. Despite I  appreciate this alot  but I can t do. i [...]

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A married man

Yes, he’s married. It’s almost hard to believe when staying with him. He’s still young and childish. He plays alot, plays alot with me. He says ugly things. The ugliest words i have ever heard. I dont know how I can stand listening to him.
I may come to an age that I have to experience [...]

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Guilt

I was walking alone on the street, when I felt that I want a pause, with this man. No I am not dumping him. May be I feel guilty I made him so in love with me. it’s a sin. I am scared. I have always been alone. What is he doing here in my life? Suddenly he [...]

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My notes

As early as I knew how to write, I liked to put my thoughts on a piece of paper. I remember many times at  my very early age, I would write my things down then teared the paper off, as I was afraid someone might read it  then I would feel embarrassed. I knew [...]

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My world

What does that word mean? I didnt even know the existence of this word. I heard it very first time when he called me that. I understood what it means… When a person call you like that you can’t get angry with that person, even that person broke up with you.
To the world you are just one [...]

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