I think I’m almost ready to say yes to marry my friend.. like him, I just want my own family and some kids. I just need to change my lifestyle. no more single life, no more rediculous love, no more wasting time of my biological clock.
you still make me tear, all the thing you do.. may be all the thing that you never do.. make me tear. I dont know what you want and expect from me, when you do like this to me. am I your friend? why do you call me baby? am I your lover ? why do you make me cry? why am I not worth more than this?? why am I thinking alone, while you never say a word. why I am left alone and wondering if you ever love and care about me, if you are really upset like I am. isnt it enough? isnt it about time I move on? love? may be it’s still there? may be it’s not , but nothing does matter.. does it?? why do I take this so serious? why have I wasted so much tear, why have I let this thing destroyed everything, myself , my study, my wellness… it’s time to go on.. if you ever love me , you should have done better, I deserve better…
somewhere in my heart, I never expect more of you, I just want to love you, I can stay loving you like this.. but I am just a human, I am selfish, I’m not that good, I cant sacrify that much for love. I need your iniative.. you need to be more man than this..
I dont know , who knows anyway? if I’m doing the right thing.. it must be not that wrong.. even I’m marrying someone I dont love. the one I love doesnt make himself deserve it .. doesnt make me feel I am wanted, how many people can stay still when you know the one you love is getting married???
