At first I just keep my eyes on his behaviours. I didnt feel anything, I didnt hear anything from his mouth. I was not scared of him.
I dont know how lonely he is, or may be he’s just a man like every other man… He tells someone he’s closed to, that he doesnt know why he ‘likes’ me this much. ( I just dont want to use the word love here). He feels like he knew me from last life.
Then I ask myself if it’s true, if it’s so I must feel the same. I dont know how many times he has kissed me now. Many times. Why do i let him do that. I just dont know how to do. I dont know how to stop him, I have tried.. I know people would say it’s my fault. Yes it is. But i am innocent. I dont know anything. I am not pretty and I never flirt, I am very boring.. I dont want to have anything to do with a married man. I didnt make any move.
Have you ever met someone who makes you feel that he/she’s just born for you? a soulmate? Is it what he’s feeling right now?
Someone used to say I have a heart of rock. It’s not easy to break into. He said there’s no love on my face, I dont know how to love. No there’s no love, because this is wrong. What’s he doing is wrong and he makes me a criminal.
secretly without letting me know. He arranges a meet for me and his single brother. what’s he doing? Should I be mad at him or should I pity him? A typical man… never think of how woman feels. what a mess! If I am to marry a guy I’m not in love with, it will never be his brother, never, rather someone else.. Man you are so strange!!
Reaction formation. It sounds like he’s trying to get you to be taken so he won’t be able to have you anymore–this way he can get away from the guilt of adultery. Just a theory.
Not bad theory. You have reason. He has no courage to tell me about the arrangement, but everyone else. It’s supposed to be secret. He has no word to talk to me… he’s much more incredible than I thought.
He wish you was taken, and he could stop all the guilts…then you should grant him, help him to complete his role of being good husband and good father…maybe with other guy not his brother if you don’t like him.
I know what you mean. I’ve tried. At the mean time I told another guy I wanted to engage soon. He just wait for me to say yes. Anyway, I cant just decide to get married because of any other reason than love. It’s my life, he should stay away. I dont like feeling guilty.