A married man

Yes, he’s married. It’s almost hard to believe when staying with him. He’s still young and childish. He plays alot, plays alot with me. He says ugly things. The ugliest words i have ever heard. I dont know how I can stand listening to him.

I may come to an age that I have to experience every taste in life. Of some reasons, he just came out of the blue into my life. I dont know if God arranged that. We’re supposed to work  together for some days, when everybody is gone and there’re just us, me and him. After these days we’ll be apart. Dont get confused, I dont have  him in my mind. I just want to write about him. It was hard to believe and it’s still hard to believe, and yes I dont believe him. I still dont understand what he wants. We walked side by side. He talked alot. He talked about silly things. He makes me laugh. He touched my head. One day he put his hand on my shoulder. The other day he put his hand on my waist. we were almost like couple… i say almost because I didnt feel comfortable with that, I kept on protesting. I didnt care much, I just knew he likes to play and he was just childish. He told me he has a girlfriend, and has had many girls. He talks alot about girls, about sleeping with girls. His wife is far away. One day he walked just right behind me, then he just lifted me up. He kissed my hands, my forehead. I still dont  get what he was doing. One day he said he wants to cook for me. He wants  to buy sth precious for me. I noticed these days he seems upset. He smokes alot but not infront of me , and still makes me laugh. He asked if i miss him if he’s away. I said of course not, I wish you’re out of my life soon, and I never care about his words too. He said he knows what I’m thinking. but he doesnt know cos I think nothing. one day he kissed my cheek. He has done it three times now, and has lifted me up three times too. Once in front of the public. I had so much fun. He said he wants to lift me up infront of the public and he just did it. He wants  to make me happy. One day he said he wants to carry me  home. He reminds me of my first love. He liked saying crazy things to me too. One day he asked me to promise him, not to have boyfriend and wait for him. Again i thought he was joking. He said why didnt we meet three years earlier, it would be perfect.
Because i didnt care about his affair, I’ve never told him about myself. One day he sit and play my mobile phone at work. Suddenly he got sick and short after he just left. I asked if he was allright, he said yes, but just want to go home. Half an hour later I had my phone in my hand and was about to write to him and ask if he already got  home. Then  there  came a message from him.  He saw sweet messages from a man to me, then got jealous. He said he doesnt know why he’s crazy like that. Then I felt that it was serious, but yet didnt understand.  Yes up to now I still dont understand. The day after we still meet as usual. He brought me a funny thing as soon as we met. We didnt talk about what happened. He never shows me he’s sad. He has alot in mind and he’s jealous. I brought him to a place where we could be children. It made him happy again. We  enjoyed it. Now he already told me he’s in love with me. Even he kept on smiling and making fun, his eyes were red. I asked him why?  he said  he was crying.  He hugged me many times. He hugged so tight that it hurts, and there were bruises on my wrist. He said he had happiness being with me, it’s like in dream. Even he’s married but he has never had happiness. It’s the only thing he wants in life.

I’ve not mentioned, we have the same birthday. we have the same thing in the middle of our forehead. we even have the same spot on our right cheek. I have no idea why he likes me. While he was asleep. I checked his phone. I was almost chocked when i saw he saved my number under name ‘ my love’. He’s like a child. I’ve never paid enough attention that  he has said many sweet things to me. he cares  alot about me too.  He cooks when I am hungry. I dont know what makes him think that I like him too. He says he pities me. he doesnt want me to think. He says he doesnt force me, he just need time.

He said many things these few days because he doesnt have much time left. I just cant remember it all.  He says he had too short time. Is it cold-hearted of me? I said I dont trust him and not believe him too.

I’ve been thinking of how a married man having affair, and why me? he said it’s not my fault that he loves me. But how can he love me if he already loves his wife, he said no. They never had such great time together. I’m just writting  down what’s going on. I dont judge.  I dont understand man. not this man.

Just a story about a married man.